Intoxicated by memories and feelings

At my place!

2012-01-28T23:10:00.006+08:00

with @JJAndTheReverie @sallybellyyy @Slxys @ikilledcaroline

(L)

Excitement overload.

@sallybellyyy!

NG TAKE 1.

NG TAKE 2.

FINALLY. HAHA. @Slxys!

@JJAndTheReverie!

@ikilledcaroline!

:D

After my house was J's house, it was the besttttt! Lo hei-ed and fought with @smellybuttcheek over salmon sashimi, it was so fun; well of course i won. teehee. J's dog was dammmmn obedient!! Wahlao, I miss her already! :)

That's about it! :D

Dragon.

2012-01-23T00:02:00.003+08:00

Hope my readers and your family have a safe and healthy Dragon year!

My dad in action!! hehe!

X

First contact lens.

2012-01-19T23:31:00.000+08:00

New stuffz.

2012-01-15T23:32:00.000+08:00

Along with 2 sports braz and a sports short, I spent a whooping $500+ on my dad's credit card.

Well, it's so worth it, anyway it's for long term, so yah.

I will work hard on working out. HAHAHA.

From Canada!

2012-01-08T22:40:00.000+08:00

From my erjie! ^^,

Lunch!

2012-01-07T23:42:00.001+08:00

Wholemeal wrap + steamed chicken fillet + tuna flakes in Virgin Olive oil + Cucumbers + Lettuce!

Yay me. :)

Tired.

2012-01-06T23:16:00.002+08:00

Why am I always tired? Even when I didn't really do anything at all.

Pfft.

I hate this feeling, it's like you're so tired, you don't feel like doing anything, and everything dont feel right.

I pig-ed out today, I gave in to temptations. Boohoo. :(

I want to burn my body fats so badly, however my body fat percentage is still under the healthy range, :p hehe.

Shall continue running/jogging tomorrow, hopefully my muscle ache wont make me look like a fool.

BANGS.

2012-01-05T22:22:00.000+08:00

Word.

2012-01-04T08:31:00.000+08:00

Women are told almost constantly—by the media, the government, and the overall attitude of society—that our bodies don’t fucking belong to us. The mythical friendzone is just another way for misogynists to enforce that idea while getting to play the victim.

It sucks when someone you have feelings for doesn’t share those feelings; it happens to women all the time, too. We hear “I just want to be friends” and “you’re like one of the guys” and “you’re like a sister to me” just as often. But you’ll never hear a woman complain that guys just don’t appreciate a Nice Girl because we’re taught it’s our own fucking fault when we’re rejected—we aren’t pretty enough or thin enough or sexy enough, we weren’t sexual enough or were too sexual, we put out too much or too little or too soon or not soon enough, we didn’t wear our hair the right way or our skirt the right length, we’re “too tomboyish” or “too butch” or “too feminine”, or we’re “not their type”, or we’re otherwise not good enough in various ways to entice the man to grace us with his affection.

But when we’re not interested in someone, we’re vilified. We’re the bitch that lead them on, the bitch who let them buy us dinner but didn’t want to date them, the bitch who doesn’t appreciate a nice guy, the bitch they were nice to and then got nothing in return from.

And, frankly, fuck those people. Showing interest in me, being friendly with me, getting close to me, or eating a meal with me (even if they paid for it) doesn’t obligate me to open my heart or my legs. And anyone who doesn’t appreciate my friendship sure as hell doesn’t deserve my love or my pussy.

Happy new year! :)

2011-12-31T23:33:00.002+08:00

Welcome, 2012.

Some say you're the year that the world end, some hoped that you'll be fabulous.

For me, I just hope to stay tight with @gangstersong, no matter if the world ends, or it's gonna be an awesome roller coaster ride. :)

X

2011-12-29T23:45:00.000+08:00

Pop some champange!

2011-12-28T16:12:00.004+08:00

@gangstersong just passed his btt, im so glad that he finally passed!!

But the estimated timing he could get his license is next March!

I dont mind though, :)

at least his dad's gonna pass him his old car!

yay!!!

:D

Pretty in pink!

2011-12-27T17:45:00.001+08:00

FYP session got postponed, hence...

Did Classic Mani Pedi today at the neighbourhood nail parlour @ $45!

Barbielaine iz me!

Terrible Things.

2011-12-26T22:37:00.003+08:00

“Dad, why are you playing this melody again? Are you thinking of mum again?” said Dylan, rubbing his eyes and clutching his teddy bear. “Y...yes son,” trying to hold back my tears, “You must always remember your mother is the greatest woman in the world and she’ll always love us, no matter where she may be.” I mumbled, as tears kept rolling down my cheeks. I continued playing the piano while remising the times I met her...

"Hey Zac!! Check that Sera chick out! Oh man, she's so hot!" said Diddy, my college best mate. I turned, but there's only one girl that caught my eyes. Her hair's shimmering under the sunlight, her smile so genuine that it's almost a crime to steal a glace; her eyes so blue like the wide and beautiful ocean, and her skin so flawless like a newborn baby's skin. "Wow." I thought to myself. For a moment, I thought I was dreaming and I saw the girl of my dreams. "What do you think Zac? Should I ask her out Saturday night? Zac? Zac?" Diddy shook my arms and it broke my imagination. "Huh? what?" I stuttered. "I was saying...." I spaced out while Diddy repeated what he said earlier. "Wow, she's... Really beautiful..." and I started fantasizing her sleeping in my arms on a picnic mat during the hot summer days. "Hey dude, come on man, what should I do? DUDE!!!" diddy interrupted my fantasy again. "Just do whatever you want, man. Stop asking me already!" I said and walked away, pissed. "That’s so not cool...." his voice got overpowered by her image in my mind.
Three weeks passed and it's graduation day. Most importantly, she's still on my mind, I kept wondering to myself what is this even happening to me. I've seen girls hotter and with a much bigger assets, but their image doesn't stay in my mind for more than two days! Why? Why? Why?

"You’re Zac, right?" a gentle voice came into my ear. I felt a tingle in my stomach and a tap on my shoulder. "It’s ... It's her!!!!! The girl who’s on my mind, day and night!" I thought to myself while I stood rooted to the ground. "Hey Zac! Your friend, diddy told me that you were looking for me! So what's up!" she said with the biggest smile I've ever seen. "I... I..." I stuttered and giving Diddy who’s across the hall a stare while he gives me a big thumb up and used sign language saying "thank me later bro!" "Oh, right. I forgot to introduce myself! I'm Sophia! But well, of course you know my name, otherwise why would you be looking for me? Right?" she said, giggling. I was taken aback by her cute laughter. "Oh... Right," I replied with an awkward laughter, "actually I was wondering...." should I ask her out? What if she rejects me? What if she said she already has a boyfriend? A million what ifs invaded my mind. Suddenly a voice broke the awkward silence. "Hey! Sera and I are gonna go for Brian's party this weekend, you guys want to go with us?" diddy said while nudging my arm. I blushed and looked away. Then I heard the most wonderful word in English vocabulary. "Yes, I'd love to!" Sophia exclaimed. Fireworks begin to pop in my mind and butterflies started flapping their wings in my stomach.

Weekend came; I was going to sera's place with diddy to pick the girls up. "Hey baby d, is Sophia with Zac now?" sera rang diddy up when we were making our way to her place. "No, she should be with you right? What happened?" he replied. "Oh shit! Hurry to my place, I'll explain to you later." she hang up, sounding serious. We ran to her place and found out that two hours ago, Sophia received a call and she ran out immediately. Where would she be? Would she go home? But she couldn't because she didn’t bring her purse out. Would she go to Brian’s place with Sid? But she didn’t have proper shoes on when she rushed out. Is she lost on the streets? However if she's really lost, she would pick up her phone to call sera, why would she shut her phone? I thought to myself. Without further ado, we begin the search party around the neighbourhood. "SOPHIA? SOPHIA?" we all shouted into the alleys, streets and even parks, but to no avail.

Unknowingly I walked into a forest; a sudden cold chill ran down my spine. “SOPHIA? SOPHIA? ARE YOU HERE? PLEASE. ANSWER ME.” I shouted in desperation. I ran like a mad man, I ran and ran, until I saw a figure lying on the ground. I rushed over, and discovered that it was Sophia! Shocked to see blood on her forehead, I picked her up, “Sophia? Sophia? Are you with me? I’m so sorry I wasn’t there when you were hurt.” I cried my eyes out, look at her, I blamed myself in so many ways, why didn’t I drop by earlier? Why didn’t I send her text messages to make sure she’s fine? “I… I… Where am I? Am… I dead or alive?” she said, faintly. “Thank God, you’re alive. Are you okay? I’ll send you to hospital right now…”before I could finish my sentence she said, “No, I’m fine. Help me wipe the blood off my forehead.” I sent her home after calling diddy and sera that she’s fine.

“Hey… Thanks for just now…” she mumbled. “Yeah, no problem.” I smiled like a boy looking into a candy shop. “I can’t help but notice you staring at me; I know I shouldn't say this but I really believe that I can tell by your eyes that you're in love with me.” She said. I blushed, and looked away. I didn’t even dare to look into her eyes when I bid farewell at her doorstep.
I went to visit her every day for the next three months, and eventually, she was able to go out of her house. Even though, I tried all ways to ask what happened the other day, she kept her mouth sealed. “I never want to lose you again, the pain is just too much for me to handle.” I said while getting hold of her hand. I’ve never let her hand go ever since.

We love having picnics on quiet beaches, feed each other with homemade food, drinking champagne, laughing at the stars and we'd share everything. I love her more and more each day, when I’m holding her hand, I feel like I’m the happiest and luckiest man in the world. She also made me realise why my previous relationships work out. Watching her play around with my sister’s kids made me want to make her my wife.

Several days later, we had a conversation about marriage at the dining table, she said she love kids, but doesn’t have the courage to raise them. I got down on one knee and popped the question, “You won’t be raising our kids alone. You know I love you, will you marry me?” She shed tears of joy and said, “Yes, yes, yes!” We became husband and wife on the 3rd March.

A year went passed after our wedding, we were still happily in love, and we were even expecting our first child. I hope it’s a boy, but Sophia hopes to be a girl. I made a joke, “What if it’s a daughter, and she looks exactly like you when she grows up, how would I differentiate the both of you apart?” I laughed, but Sophia shed a tear and turned away. “What’s wrong honey? Are you okay? I’m sorry if I was too insensitive just now.” I exclaimed. “Oh, it’s not you; I just had some sand in my eyes. I love you sweetie. I’m having this massive headache again, I just need some rest.” She replied.

On the last day of May, the baby came. I was so happy that it was a boy; I rushed in to tell Sophia that. She was pale, her hands were cold, I panicked and said “Baby, what’s wrong? Are you not feeling okay? I’ll call the doc…” she interrupted me and said, “No… Stay with me,” she grabs my hand tightly, “can I tell you a terrible thing? It seems that I'm sick and I've only got weeks. Please don't be sad now, I really believe, you were the greatest thing that ever happened to me.”
“Why? Why?” I asked. Finally she told me, what happened to her that day, she received a call from her father’s cell exclaiming that he was kidnapped; she rushed out to meet the kidnapper in exchange for her father’s life. Little did she know, it was a prank by some hooligans with the stolen phone from her father. She got raped and got hit several times on her head making her unconscious. Before the arrival of the baby, she went for a full body scan, only to realize she had Subarachnoid hemorrhage, which means bleeding in the area between the brain and the thin tissues that cover the brain. The symptoms are the thunderclap headaches and vomiting.

I dropped on my knees and wept like a child who lost his favorite toy car, “Why didn’t I noticed something was wrong? Why did I think that those headaches are due to dehydration or little rest? Why did I think those frequent bathroom visits to vomit are just due to the pregnancy?” I slapped myself during the thoughts. Now, when we realised that she had this condition, it’s in the last stage, even if we do surgeries, her chances were less than 20%. Hence she refuses to take the treatment; she told the doctor she wanted to spend her last few weeks with me and the baby.
We returned to our home, I lay her in bed and shut all the curtains due to the bright lights, she held our baby in her hands, singing lullaby while he smiles at her. Every time, I saw her this way, all I wanted to do is breakdown and cry, but no, I thought to myself, I should be strong, this way, she wouldn’t be as upset. I love her; this is the only want to help her.

“What do you want to name him? Shall we name him Ethan? Michael? William?” I said. “No… I want him to be Dylan.” She said, tapping her index finger gently on the baby’s nose and he grinned.

On 12th June, a hot summer morning, I lay baby Dylan beside her on the bed, because she is too weak to hold him. Looking at them, I’m the happiest man alive. I headed to the kitchen to make their lunch when suddenly Dylan let out a loud cry. I rushed over only to find Sophia lying in a pool of vomit, having a seizure. I held her in my arms, crying my eyes out. “Baby, I love you, I really do… Don’t leave me. Dylan and I need you. Baby, please don’t go!!!” I exclaimed. A tear dropped from the corner of her eye, her hands loses grip and fell to the ground. “NO!!!!!!!!!! PLEASE. SOPHIA. PLEASE. COME BACK TO ME LIKE YOU DID. I LOVE YOU. NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”

I held Dylan in my arms, and threw a white rose down the burial ground and all the things I love about her, hoping she won’t forget Dylan and I, no matter where she may be.

Years after Sophia’s death, I would play our song whenever I miss her, and she would be beside me, holding me with her soft, gentle hands and singing along to our song. Dylan once asked me, "Daddy, what is love?" I replied, "Don't fall in love, there's just too much to lose. If given the choice then I beg you to choose to walk away, walk away. Don't let her get you. I can't bare to see the same thing happen to you. Now son, I'm only telling you this because life, can do terrible things."

Inspired by: Terrible Things, Mayday Parade.

Warmest wishes.

2011-12-24T12:33:00.000+08:00

Have a great one, everyone! :)

k!

2011-12-23T13:10:00.003+08:00

Not a fan, but Yonghwa (The guy who sang first) is so fucking hot.

-

Anyway, Im currently watching Heartstrings!

Even though the storyline is fucking cliche, but it's still nice, cos the main lead is YongHwa!!!! :3 :3 :3

For life.

2011-12-22T23:58:00.000+08:00

I still hold them close to my heart. :')

I love you all forever and always.

♥

YAY!

2011-12-21T21:08:00.002+08:00

3 days straight of filming at Jurong Bird Park finally ended.

Next week will be a whole week of animation @ Boiboi Jeremy's place.

Hopefully the end result will be good.

:)

2011-12-19T23:08:00.001+08:00

"We try so hard not to die, sometimes we forget to appreciate life."
-- “appreciation and the bomb” by The Spill Canvas.

2011-12-17T12:57:00.001+08:00

Out with the boys! :)

2011-12-16T23:46:00.002+08:00

Today's like a party for me! Quoted from @sallybellyyy. HAHA

Had K session with the boys and gal - Wilson, Junwen, Gary, Kevin, Zhihui, Darren, and Cheryl.

Wahlao, I swear I havent had so much fun since FYP started..... HAIS.

K-ed from 1130AM till 550PM. MADNESS, PURE MADNESS. HAHAHA

But fucking shiok, $13/head only!!!!

Didnt take any pictures cause I didnt bring my camera. :( Awwww.

Anyway, it was fucking awesome man, I sing until my voice crack.

PAISEH MAXXXXX, BUT NEVERMIND, ALL MY BROTHERS ALREADY. HAHAHAHA :P

After K session, we had steamboat!!!

After steamboat, we walked around Bugis Junction, then we headed home, with all our clothes smelling stinky. HAHAHA.

New wedge!

2011-12-11T11:39:00.002+08:00

I've been looking for something like this since last year or something!

So happy that I finally found it! :D :D :D

Anyway @gangstersong and I split the bill, since it's not a good thing for him to buy me as a xmas gift.

He bought a bag for me too! A normal and kinda huge one! hehe!

Okay, thats about it. :D

X

2Y6M.

2011-12-04T17:28:00.003+08:00

I love you. :)

Thank you for not giving up on me on the toughest period of our relationship.

Im ever so grateful to have you in my life.

X

A fucking milestone in my life.

2011-12-03T22:20:00.002+08:00

I swallowed a tablet.

After 19 years of drinking bittersweet medicine syrups, I've finally let go of my phobia and ignore my fear.

Thanks mum. I love you. :)

My 550D.

2011-11-12T17:18:00.003+08:00

Credits: @sallybellyyy

A fucking good buy, bought it @ SGD$1,099 with lots of freebies @ Food & IT Fair (Suntec) by Audio House.

Amirah accompanied there, fucking grateful for her man, otherwise I have to queue up an hour alone. :( On a funny note, we saw a Caucasian man in his mid 40s or 50s that looked like the Kentucky Fried Chicken guy on his off day. Note: On his off day. HAHAHAHA

Okay that's about the day.

A big thank you to Amirah, love ya! ;)

Pottermore

2011-10-13T22:47:00.001+08:00

"Hufflepuffs are trustworthy and loyal. We don’t shoot our mouths off,but cross us at your peril; like our emblem, the badger, we will protect ourselves, our friends and our families against all-comers."

:)

35. Top 5 favourite accent

2011-09-30T10:21:00.000+08:00

1) British
2) American
3) Aussie

:)

34. Top 5 favourite blogs.

2011-09-29T10:19:00.000+08:00

1) ficklemindedass.tumblr
2) xiaxue.bs
3) shiberty.com
4) ...
5) ...

I dont reallly read a lot of blogs. Awwww. Intro me some? haha

33. Top 5 things I couldnt live without.

2011-09-28T10:12:00.001+08:00

1) My phone
2) My Itouch
3) My jacket
4) SR (HEHE I KNOW YOU SMILING NOW)
5) Friendz

32. Top 10 places I would like to visit

2011-09-27T10:06:00.002+08:00

1) NYC
2) London
3) Paris
4) Hawaii
5) Bali
6) HongKong (Disneyland)
7) Tokyo (Disneyland & Ramen Museum)
8) Korea
9) Germany
10) ...

*Regardless of ranking!!

31. Top 10 favourite TV shows

2011-09-26T10:02:00.001+08:00

1) How I Met Your Mother
2) Big Bang Theory
3) Shit My Dad Says
4) Scrubs
5) Drop Dead Diva
6) Mentalist
7) Glee
8) The Walking Dead
9) Family Guy
10) Daria

*Regardless of ranking also!! :)

30. Top 10 favourite bands / musicians

2011-09-25T09:43:00.000+08:00

1) All Time Low
2) Mayday Parade
3) Forever the Sickest Kids
4) NeverShoutNever
5) The Wanted
6) Paramore
7) Maroon 5
8) Adele
9) Katy Perry
10) David Guetta.

*REGARDLESS OF RANKS! HEHE

29. Top 10 favourite actors/actresses.

2011-09-24T10:02:00.002+08:00

1) Ryan Gosling.
2) Emma Stone.
3) Matthew Lewis.
4) Gerard Butler.
5) Jason Segel.
6) N.P.H
7) Zach Braff
8) Jim Parsons
9) Brooke Elliott
10) ME. HAHAHHAA

*Regardless of rankings!

28. Top 10 favourite movies.

2011-09-23T09:57:00.002+08:00

1 & 2) HP & The Deathly Hallows Part 1&2.
3) The Notebook.
4) PS. I Love You.
5) Constantine.
6) Daybreakers.
7) Easy A.
8) Crazy, Stupid, Love.
9) The Curious Case of Benjamin Buttons.
10) Get Smart.

*Regardless of ranking :)

27. Top 10 favourite animals.

2011-09-22T09:55:00.001+08:00

1)Hamsters.
2)Hamsters.
3)Hamsters.
4)Hamsters.
5)Hamsters.
6)Hamsters.
7)Hamsters.
8)Hamsters.
9)Hamsters.
10)Hamsters.

26. Top 10 favourite songs.

2011-09-21T09:33:00.005+08:00

Current Favourites!!!!
1) Glad You Came, The Wanted.
2) If It Means A Lot To You, A Day To Remember.
3) Where Dem Girls At, David Guetta ft Flo Rida & Nicki Minaj.
4) Misery Business, Paramore.
5) You Make Me Feel, Cobra Starship ft. Sabi.
6) Hey Baby, Pitbull.
7) Super Bass, Nicki Minaj.
8) In The Dark, Dev.
9) Your Song, Mayday Parade.
10) Tough Love, Forever The Sickest Kids.

Regardless of ranking! :D

25. Top 5 turn ons and turn off.

2011-09-20T09:26:00.003+08:00

Onz
5) Flawless long legs.
4) Playing musical instruments.
3) Singing.
2) Geeky specs.
1) Neck kissing.

Offz
5) Low/no personal hygiene.
4) Body Odour.
3) Stupidity.
2) Bad breath.
1) Arrogance.

24. If I believe in love at the first sight.

2011-09-19T09:25:00.000+08:00

Yes!!! ;)

23. If I believe in long distance relationships.

2011-09-18T09:23:00.000+08:00

No.

22. What I find attractive in members of the same sex?

2011-09-17T09:20:00.000+08:00

Legs, eyes and hair! :$

21. What I find attractive in member of the opposite sex.

2011-09-16T15:50:00.000+08:00

Body build, eyes, his voice and the way he speaks.

20. My idea of a perfect mate.

2011-09-15T14:42:00.000+08:00

Krayston Yeo Song Ren. :)

Not giving up on me, no matter what. Endure my noisy snoring. Tolerate my 'princess' temper. Give in to my desires. Would rather sleep without the blanket than fight them with me just 'cause he know I would catch a cold without the blanket. and a lot more! :)

I love you, honey!

19. My idea of a perfect date.

2011-09-14T14:37:00.000+08:00

Strolling on the beach with our hands held tight, our heads held high and it'll all feel right.

Anywhere is fine, Singapore is a small country. :)

18. Have I ever had my heart broken? Have I ever broken someone's heart?

2011-09-13T14:34:00.000+08:00

Yes, for both statement.

Well, Im a strong believer in karma. hahaha.

17. Ever cheated on someone?

2011-09-12T12:34:00.000+08:00

Not really! :)

16. My relationship status.

2011-09-11T14:32:00.000+08:00

Attached! ;)

15. Celebrities Crushes.

2011-09-10T14:21:00.002+08:00

1) Christofer Drew (Band: NeverShoutNever);
2) Ryan Gosling (Actor: The Notebook, Crazy Stupid Love);
3) Kyle Burns (Band: Forever The Sickest Kids);
4) Jack Barakat (Band: All Time Low);
5) Jennifer Aniston (Actress: He's Just Not That Into You, Horrible Bosses);
6) Megan Fox (Everyone know who is she, yes? HAHA);
7) Adele (Singer)

:D

14. An idol.

2011-09-09T23:35:00.001+08:00

I dont really have an idol, that I look up upon in midst of sadness or tough situations...... :\

13. Is there anyone I would do anything for.

2011-09-08T19:30:00.003+08:00

I guess it's my mum.

She did everything for me when I was young, even till now, when I say I was thirsty, she would bring water for me. :)

I love you, mummy (L)

12. Any weird / hidden talents I have.

2011-09-07T12:00:00.000+08:00

I doubt so.

11. My favourite quote.

2011-09-06T12:00:00.000+08:00

"You only live once"

10. If I drink/ smoke/ do drugs.

2011-09-05T12:00:00.000+08:00

I only drink, abit. Im such a bad drinker, I think?

I was so fucking high once, which I only had 2 Tequila shots and 2 Champanges.

It's only good if you know your limits, and you dont puke after drinking.

Otherwise, it's fucking messy.

9. When was the last time I cried really hard.

2011-09-04T12:00:00.001+08:00

25th August. I'll never forget the reason I cried.

I cried until I couldnt breathe, my eyes were burning and my hands were shivering.

Thanks SR, Jiaen and Sally for being there for me.

wo ai ni men :$

8. Where would I like to live.

2011-09-03T12:00:00.002+08:00

I would like to live in the City of love, Paris. :)

ahhh, je t'aime beaucoup mi amor.

7. What do I want to do when I'm older

2011-09-02T15:53:00.001+08:00

I want to be a photographer. :)

6. What would I do if I won the lottery?

2011-09-01T16:38:00.002+08:00

I would buy myself the Coach handbag I was eyeing. hehe.
And buy a new bag for SR too :)

5. If I have any tattoo / piercings.

2011-08-31T16:32:00.000+08:00

I dont have any tattoos, but I have 6 ear piercings :)

4. My biggest insecurity.

2011-08-30T15:12:00.001+08:00

Friends leaving / getting distant from me, no matter what happens. Sometimes i have to leave. However, I dont want to be the friend who leaves when they fucked up. But sometimes, they need to understand why I get so fucking upset at times. Even if they dont get it, they should, after I explained why am i so sad. But if they still dont get it, then i'll go. They're not worth keeping.

3. How many people I follow? How many followers do I have?

2011-08-29T14:06:00.000+08:00

On tumblr, I follow 429 people and I have 316 followers. :)

2. Post a picture of myself.

2011-08-28T12:59:00.000+08:00

1. Describe myself in a word.

2011-08-27T12:42:00.002+08:00

Strong. :)

Just to keep this blog alive. :)

2011-08-26T22:41:00.001+08:00

quick update.

2011-07-27T10:14:00.004+08:00

Heyo, long time no blog eh. Hahaha.

Been really busy with School. FYP, lessons and UTs. Pfft.

I seriously think the person who say RP is damn slack, should be bitchslapped!

Because it's not! Haissssss.

FYP1 is coming to an end, THANK GOD. Erm, just saying. HAHA. Not that Im a christian or what.

Anyway, UT1 has been bad, my grades are cuiiiiii. Lucky UT2 saved me. :)

Got a feeling UT3's gonna be a killer, so now trying to get as much good daily grades as possible. Haiyooo.

Back to FYP1, Im super proud of it, the hard work of my boys and I. :) :) :) :) :)

Teeheehee!

4th August is my FYP final evaluation, hopefully it'll be awesome. :) :) :)

TTFN.

X

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2011-07-21T17:23:00.001+08:00

“The greatest irony of love. “The greatest irony of love; loving the right person at the wrong time, having the wrong person when the time is right and finding out you love someone right after that person walks out of your life. And sometimes, you think you’re already over a person, but when you see them smile at you, you’ll suddenly realize that you’re just pretending to be over them just to ease the pain of knowing that they will never be yours again. For some, they think that letting go is one way of expressing how much they love that person. Some are afraid to see the one they love being held by someone else. Most relationships tend to fail not because the absence of love. Love is always present. It’s just that one was being loved too much and the other was being loved too little. As we all know that the heart is the center of the body but it beats on the left. Maybe that’s the reason why the heart is not always right. Most often we fall in love with the person we think we love but to only discover that for them, we are just for passing time while the one who truly loves us remains either a friend or a stranger. So here’s a piece of advice; let go when you’re hurting too much, give up when love isn’t enough, and move on when things are not like before. For surely there is someone out there who will love you even more.”

The other day.....

2011-07-21T12:38:00.013+08:00

14th July 2011: I headed down to Little India with Sally & Samantha, Awesome3some!

Took MRT down afterschool, wah, was superrrrr fuckingggg hungry!

When we reached Little India, we went to get our hennas done first, just in case they closed the shop after we makaned. :)

After henna, we went to MAKAN!

Very cute hor? And I just realised, the pic looks like a mickey mouse. HAHA

:D

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2011-07-15T23:20:00.004+08:00

Once upon a time there was a wonderful story called Harry Potter. The story was not thousands and thousands of hours long, it was not prejudice or demanding, nor boastful or self-righteous. In fact, it was a simple story. It was a tale of an orphaned boy who thought he was alone in the world, and destined to be so forever. He soon discovered that friendship, love and family were waiting for him at an odd little place called Hogwarts. His friends and his foes fought valiantly through seven years of school, discovering that weaknesses could be overcome and strength could be encouraged through a simple thing called love. Harry Potter thought he was alone in the world, if only he knew that millions of people, like myself, saw him as so much more than a character, but as a friend.

Tonight, I, like so many before me and so many yet to see, watched the final instalment of the Harry Potter film series. Like all of those prior, it was a rare piece of magic that was more than a joy to watch. However, throughout the entire film, I could not help but feel a terrible pain in my chest. This was goodbye. While I agree that the story itself will never truly die, there is still that awful feeling knowing that while the story will live on in our hearts, the faces we know, the people we love now have to leave us.

I feel as though I have lost my very best friend. Those whom I have grown with, laughed with, cried with and loved with as though I was a part of the books and films myself. No words can accurately describe the love I feel for these characters and this story, and I am positive that nothing will be the same again.

However, another thing I know for sure is that Harry Potter leaves behind it today a better person than it found those many years before. I’d like to think that through the wise words of J.K Rowling, the brilliant direction of all of the directors (from Columbus to Yates) and the beyond magical performances of all the actors, I have become a far better person than I could have ever hoped had I never found this story.

We always thank the brilliant Joanne Rowling for the stories she wrote. She brought us all together, and created the greatest story I will ever read, and the greatest characters I will ever know. She created a world entirely of its own where magic is not just in the minds of children, but in the hearts of adults and kids alike. She defied age, and genre, and conventions, to create something that was unlike any of its predecessors. She is a true genius, and constant hero for all of us.

But those we regularly forget to acknowledge are the brilliant minds behind the film series. These people took something that could only be seen in our minds through the magical words of J.K Rowling, and made it into a physical and visual reality where we could watch all of our dreams come a reality. The special effects team that made magic possible, the production and art designers who created the world we wanted to see, the editors who pieced together pieces of a puzzle to create a masterpiece, and the directors who orchestrated the most brilliant and visually mind-blowing piece of cinematic art that I will ever know.

And to the actors who sacrificed their “muggle” childhood to become wizards for real, I thank you with all of my heart. For me, the books and movies go hand in hand. That which isn’t shown in the books I assume happened just off camera, and that which is in the movies, occurred between the lines. Therefore, for me, when I read the books today, I see Dan, Rupert, Emma and all the rests’ faces as their respective characters. Dan, you could not have been a better Harry if you tried, and no one will ever be nearly as wonderful as you. Rupert, I could not thank you enough for being such a skilled and brilliant actor, allowing all of Ron to come out in your performance. And to Emma, I literally could not say enough words to explain how much I am forever in your debt. You brought to life my favourite character of all time, and no one but you could have done it with such grace, style, kindness and brilliance. No one could have cast a more perfect cast, they will always be the true wizards. I do not think it is possible to be more grateful to a person than I am to J.K Rowling, the entire crew and production team and the amazing actors.

But most of all, I’d like to thank the characters themselves, for teaching me the greatest lessons I’ve learnt so far in my 18 years of life. To Harry Potter, who taught me that luck pays no part in succeeding, but courage, loyalty and kindness will always win over evil. To Hermione Granger, my hero and inspiration, for teaching me that intelligence is a trait to be embraced and that wants of myself do not out way the needs of many. To Ronald Weasley, who showed me what fierce friendship and love truly looked like. To Neville Longbottom, who showed me that bravery sometimes may take its’ time in coming to us, but when it does, it can change the world. To Ginny Weasley, for being brave enough to fight not only for love, but for family and friendship. To Hagrid, for showing me that that which is odd to the eye, can be kind to the heart. To Luna Lovegood, for making quirks and unusual traits something to be embraced rather than feared. To Fred & George Weasley, for teaching me how to laugh, even at the saddest of times. Draco Malfoy for showing me that family will always be worth fighting for. To Albus Dumbledore, for never overlooking the good in all hearts. To Minerva McGonagall for standing up to evil for the sake of her students. And, to Severus Snape, for teaching me that love, even that which is unreturned, is the most powerful magic of all.

I will forever miss you, Harry Potter, but your story will forever beat in time with my heart.

2011-07-12T10:02:00.000+08:00

Im so fucking excited for next sem. HAHAHA

So cute!

2011-07-03T11:32:00.003+08:00

She seemed to be saying "Bloody hell" when she's fed with lemon. HAHA

With a Pinch of Salt + Ice Cream Chef!

2011-07-02T22:34:00.009+08:00

2011-06-26T18:29:00.002+08:00

2011-06-25T19:22:00.003+08:00

"I want to wear your sweatshirt to bed, watch scary movies with you, talk on the phone until sunrise, sneak out at night to look at the stars with you, play your favourite video game, make you watch chick flicks, kiss you in the rain, go on walks with you, laugh until i can't breathe, hold hands.
I want to fall hopelessly in love with you."

2011-06-23T14:22:00.001+08:00

What I did today.

2011-06-14T20:19:00.004+08:00

Designed a Menu for an Ice Cream Cafe today, using Adobe InDesign.

Front.

2 Pages menu.

Back.

Naize? HEHE

Mok;

2011-06-12T14:46:00.001+08:00

I can’t promise you a perfect relationship. I can’t promise you everything will be alright. In fact I want you to know that somehow, there will be rough times, and things will get rough. I’m probably one of the most difficult people you’ll ever meet. But I can be sweet. I’ll be your shoulders. I’m a great listener. I’ll protect you with all of my heart. I’d never lie to you. I’ll love you as much as I can. And as long as you’re trying, I’m going to stay.

Are you living in a Black&White world??????

2011-06-10T12:40:00.003+08:00

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A wide variety of bb coloured covers at your fingertips!

What's more, it's only SGD$30!

Click on the image to go into their blogshop!

2011-05-26T23:19:00.001+08:00

Obliviate.

2011-05-23T23:49:00.001+08:00

If you leave without a reason, don't come back with an excuse.

Sun. Sand. Sea.

2011-05-21T23:50:00.016+08:00

Headed to Sentosa with SR today, supposedly to go with BB, but her parents last minute say they wanna bring her out. And I reallly want to go Sentosa so badly, hence I called up SR. :3 Thanksssssss for the company!!

@ the tram! Super lazy to walk!

Anyway, Sentosa is now sooooo different from last time! But the last time I went was super long, maybe like a year or close to that. Hahaha. Now even got Mac!!! Omg lor. Hahahaha. Lastime the beach station only got Coffeebean and 7-11. Wahlaoz. haha.

Today not much people, shiiiiiok! Plus today's weather abit cloudy! hehe.

FOOOOOOOOD! NOMZ.

Veggie pancake!!! Must buy this for mummy to taste! We're huge fans of veggie pancakes. Omg.... hahaha. We even make our own! :P I tried this with spicy(Kimchi) flavour, I think it's not that nice, cos Im not a fan of Kimchi :\ Only liked it as soup base for my maggie. hehe.

Then we went into the water! I was very scared of drowning, hence I kept holding on to him. :S I panic attack-ed once, he was super shocked. :X Sorrry ah!

Took a couple of pictures with him, but this is my favourite!

So I went in and out of the water, lie on the matt and i fell asleep. TOO TIRED ALREADY. HAHAHA

Then after like 2 - 3 hours, we went to shower and get changed! :) :) :)

Me: Eh, I never sit the skyride before leh.
Him: Let's go lor. Lastime I sit, damn fun.
Me: HEHEHEHE OKAY.

HERE WE COMEEEEEE!!!! *EGGCITED*

QUITE SCARY BUT DAMN FUN. IF ONLY SG GOT WINTER............ :P

Next, we went to take the Tiger Sky Tower !!!! Damn shiok, got aircon. HAHAHA. :P

Ohya, I forgot to bring out my make up kit, hence I felt super naked after I showered. :( Thus, no pictures of me after I showered!!! :( Super uglyyyy.

ANYWAY!!

MY HAIR LIKE A LONG HORRRRR?!?!?!?!! HEHEHE

MY CURRENT HAIR COLOUR. HEHEHE

FROM ABOVE LOOKING DOWN!!!

After that we went back to Vivo for dinner!!

Shark's fin. I know very cruel, but it has been so fucking long since I ate one. :( Forgive me? Anyway, it's damn niceee, but i added too much vinegar, so the taste is like too sour. ._.

Had a really bad stomach ache after dinner. Fml. Must be the salmon :(

Was feeling super weak, hence I headed home after that.

Thanks for today, SR. :)

TGIF!

2011-05-20T23:59:00.007+08:00

Had sooooo much laugh with Haiqal today!!!!!

LADY RARA!

RA RA AH AH AH, RA MA RA MA MA, RA RA WOOLALA !

*Inside joke.

I love today so much!

:) :) :)

Kept my mind off certain stuff. Hahaha.

Anyway! Filming again = I didnt bring laptop. HAHA. SLACKER MUCH! :P

And I think or found out or realize when Im really drained, I'll start to say things that are illogical or just dumb.

CTeng went like, "Team 5, why so much white space? The framing can be tighter."

THEN I WENT LIKE, "HUH? MEANS NOT TIGHT ENOUGH?"

EVERYONE STARTED LAUGHING. WAHLAO. THEN I WAS LIKE..

THEN I REALISED WHAT I SAID I WAS LIKE..

Hehe.

After lesson, I met up with SJ & Vic.

SO SORRY FOR MAKING YOU GUYS WAIT. :(

Walked to inter w SJ to meet Vic, then we cabbed over to Suntec for Aston's.

Headed over to Starbucks after walking in circles around Suntec and M Square. :3

I brought my instax 7s out, hence...

Our group shots. ♥

Can't wait to hang out with you both again! :) :)

&SJ, DONT SO STRESSED ABOUT FYP. ANY THING CAN RANT TO ME. HEHE. I LOVE YOU OKAY. :) XOXOXOXO

2011-05-19T09:59:00.002+08:00

It's kind of fucked up isnt it? How all of a sudden, someone just wakes up and decides to never talk to you again. No reason. No explanation. No words said. like you never meant anything to them, and what hurts the most is how they made it look so easy.

Note to self.

2011-05-18T10:21:00.000+08:00

Town w BB!

2011-05-17T11:13:00.004+08:00

I think I look like charcoal!!!!

Got our strawberry & creme frappe from Starbucks @ half price!

Headed to Forever21 and I bought a dress & a top! yayyyyyyz. however, the fitting room quene is maaaaad long!!!! we quene for like an hour i think. FUCKING LONG. After q-ing for the fitting room, we quened for the cashier. KNN. we spent like 1.5 hrs in there. pfffft.

After that, we headed over to Far East Plaza for some PONTIAN! :D

Headed home afterthat! :3 :3 :3 :3

I want a simple explanation for what I'm feeling inside.

2011-05-16T22:14:00.002+08:00

I have a huge crush on you, S. So fucking huge.

But I get your signal now. So I guess I'll just go.

Bye.

2011-05-15T13:37:00.000+08:00

absence makes the heart fucking insane.

If loneliness move out, I'd fill the vacancy.

2011-05-15T10:31:00.000+08:00

In your heart, in your heart, in your heart,
I can tell you can fit one more.
Open up make a brand new start,
I don’t care who’s stayed before.

2011-05-14T18:23:00.001+08:00

"I want to be your girlfriend more than an electron wants to attach to a proton"
- House Bunny.

Happy Sammybaby's day!

2011-05-13T22:51:00.008+08:00

Lesson was okay, designed a poster for Shutter the movie.

My poster not scary @ all. #fail. HAHAHA.

I think Haiqal's is super bloooooody and scary lor.

Like too gore already, somemore I just got my period, hence I hateeee the sight of blood. HAHA.

So anyway, my crampz was durable, LUCKILY!

Because.... I kinda planned a surprise for Sammybaby afterschool w Daryl & CD!!!!

Sammybaby♥

Daryl & Sammybaby :D

Group shots!!!

CD this weirdo!! Buy $120+ teeshirt, wear another shirt to cover it. Wahpiang!

♥♥

HAPPY 20th BABE!!!!! :) :) :)

I need a hug so badly.

2011-05-12T21:12:00.000+08:00

Was it something I said? Fuck. I wish I could take it back. Fuck!

Im having the worst headache now. WORST.

and heartache................. fffuuu

--

Today is a fucking good day actually!

Had Digital Audio and Video! Did filming, Alviss and I were the main characters! HAHAHA

And faci say our group has the best chase scenes! HEHEHEHE!

Will export the video to my thumbdrive next week! hehehe.

Okay need to do rj alr. SIAN MAXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX ):

2011-05-11T21:29:00.002+08:00

Happy Graduation, Kenneth! :) :) :) :)

Im kinda scared for my graduation, even though I can't wait to get out of RP.

Maybe Im afraid because I've so many doubts about my future.

:\

I wonder what my future would be like?

2011-05-10T20:35:00.001+08:00

I want to be that person who makes you fall in love all over again. I want to be that person who stop your insecurities from growing and tear your walls down. I want to be that person who fills up your loneliness and make you feel loved and warm. I want to be that person who takes care of you when you’re sick. I want to be that person who talks to you until you fall asleep on the phone. I want to be that person you’re able to text good morning to and good night to. I want to be that person who makes the biggest difference in your life. I want to be that person who makes you believe that there’s someone out there who will make you smile again. I want to be that person who makes you happy. I want to be that person who will heal your broken heart. I want to be that person who you devote your trust to. I want to be that person you vent to and spill your problems to. I want to be that person you trust your faith in. I want to be that person who believes in you no matter what. I want to be that person who looks out for you and comfort you on your bad days. I want to be that person who will listen to your past and I won’t judge you upon it. I want to be that person who will always be there for you, good news or bad.

I want to be that person. Why? Because you interest me. Because you’re like a puzzle waiting to be solved. Because you’re someone who deserves someone like this or maybe better. I just want to be that person to prove to you that you can fall in love all over again, but then I won’t stand a chance anyways. If one day someone becomes yours, I hope that person knows how lucky they are to have someone like you. So, all of this ends up becoming little pieces of fragile hopes that will shatter.

2011-05-10T20:29:00.003+08:00

Today is the worst day of my life.. so far.

First, I went to class late by 5 mins, cos I mixed up the timing of the lesson, I thought it was 9.45, but it was 9.15. :(

Second, when I opened the door, I went like "This is HRM right? We're supposed to wear formal yes?" cause NOBODY ELSE in my class wore formal. DA FUCK BRUH? _|_

Lastly, my fyp group's other supervisor arranged for a trip to go down to Zoo, which I think it's kind of a waste of time. we asked him stuffz he just like brush us off. Wtf? Then its like the whole time, he went like "Okay anything else?" after walking like 5-10 mins. -.- Might as well dont go.

Hais................ I need haato&co royal choco & milktea ice cream man, pronto!

I hate talking first.

2011-05-10T11:42:00.001+08:00

I feel like i’m annoying the person all the time, even if they tell me i’m not. I hate talking first because it shows off that I want and need to talk to that person so much that i’m throwing myself out there. I hate talking first because I want to feel wanted, too. I want people to talk to me, to see if they’re really interested and so they show me that i’m not an annoying little fuck by actually wanting to start a conversation with me.

I kinda sorta really like you a lot. like a lot a lot. :$

2011-05-09T12:52:00.000+08:00

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